pursue passion or fear?

Imposter syndrome is real.

I’ve had the desire to write for years. And while I have been writing for as long as I can remember, the contents of my brain are dumped onto the pages of various notebooks, then closed only for me to see.

I’ve always struggled with proper grammar, spelling, English writing rules, and recognize the reality that I lack any formal writing skills. Because of this, I’ve been too afraid to write anything for anyone to see.

If you know me personally, you know that I often talk about dreams & how we should pursue them, even if they seem a little scary.

For whatever reason, I’ve let the idea that I am not good enough hold me back; I’ve been driven by fear more than following passion. I have many dreams, and to follow them, you have to start somewhere. Let’s say this website gets no views, no one reads what I’ve written, points out all of my writing flaws, or I go viral for being a wanna be influencer. If that’s the worst case scenario- I think I can manage. I don’t want to continue with the “what if,” weighing so heavily in my mind.

The balancing act between pursuing passion and being held back by fear is a wobbly one. You take one jump to either side, and it feels like you’ve made the utmost permanent decision.

The reality for this blog is that I want to write, and I’m attempting to jump towards the way of pursuing passion. I’m not perfect, I’ll probably look at this in a few years and cringe- but I cannot become the person I want to be, or follow my dreams without choosing a side. Fear or passion?

Today I will choose passion.